Different yoga classes

I have attended "different" yoga classes these two days. Yesterday, John didn't show up at the scheduled class, I guess must be miss communication, Richard steped in instead. I saldemly attende classes other than Anusara teacher. But Richard's class kind of impressed me. His class is very much like what I did two years ago, which remind me something I miss. Especially at the begining class, he brings breathing practice into warm ups, which is very nice and well designed. I like it. We even did kabalabakit and nauli is the class. But I think he should mentioned for women in period should pass these two pranayama. Male teachers should be more considerated!! His sequence bring back memory, which is good for me to think out of the box. I have been in Anusara for too long, which kind of narrow me down. I should attend diffrent style of yoga class.

And today Amy's class is my second Chinese local teacher's yoga class. I was corrected so many times for my shoulder loop! The teacher insist I do too much, the shoulder blades should not close or engage... I am a bit kind of annoyed by her adjustment. She cannot convince me. Down dog should really engage shoulder blades, because it's a handstand prep pose! And plank pose as well. Of course there shouldn't be too much shoulder loop, but still need to be engaged! She didn't quiet understand. The poses she led are also kind of non traditional. Well, but i try to quiet my mind, otherwise I won't be able to enjoy the rest of the class. It's fun to try different teacher anyway! I learned!! :) Thanks for all energy!

Being with your parents

Few days ago, I read an article on a magazine, which make my eyes wet. It was about taking care of your parents. It is a serious of report on this issue, including interviews with those late 30's, or 40's childern. This is talking about how my life is and how confused I am now.
In the article, it said "孝", the traditional Chinese way of caring and respecting your parents maybe no longer works, or maybe need to work in other ways. Parents and childrens may no longer live together, and the age difference is bigger, children at this edge are at the "sandwich stage", raising their kids and supporting their parents at the same time. If the parents are healthy, you are lucky. If not, may need a lot more time, effort and money to take care of them.
My mom had the hip joint replacement surgery one month ago. I came back before the surgery, since she was already in a lot of pain at hip joint, not able to move around. Dad called several time ask me to come back to take care, he sounds very desprated. This made me feel guilty and urge to get back, but on the other hand, i hate leaving my huby in SH. Anyhow, this kind of quilty feeling is always there while I stay at my parents home and while I taking care of them and the house.
On the other hand, it's so hard to get along with them. I mean, the way we interact and the way to caring each other.... I really don't know how. Even if I know how, my action just end up disappointly...
So, I have the feeling of quilty and disappointed to myself....
And I don't see I am really helping my parents, in the way I wish I could do better....
This is my learning, and this learning maybe my last chance in this life time. They are getting older, and no one could say how many time we got. This terrified me somehow. I really wish I have the wisdom to cope this!

We are meant to shine

This is a quote sent from a yoga friend in Greek. I did a little translation, hope won't lost the meaning. I think this quot is familiar, maybe I read something similar in "A return to love". This is a powerful statememt, "we are meant to shine!" I love this and hope I could always keep this in mind. So I could free myself and shine!!!
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"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

我們最深的恐懼不是因為我們缺了什麼, 而是我們有超乎想像的能量! 令我們害怕的不是我們的黑暗面, 而是我們自身耀眼的光!

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.

我們常常問自己, 我怎麼可能會是耀眼的,美麗的, 有才華的? 事實上, 我們怎麼可能不是呢? 你是神的子民. 小看自己對這世界是沒有幫助的. 畏畏縮縮的好讓別人覺得不受威脅是沒有一點益處的. 我們都注定要發亮的, 就像每個小孩一樣!


We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
我們生來都是為了要綻放在我們身上神的光芒. 不只是某些人可以, 是每個人都如此.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
當我們讓我們的光芒閃耀的同時, 我們也自然的允許旁人一樣的發光. 就像我們將自己從恐懼中解放出來的同時, 我們也同時的解救了其他人!

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這段話我似乎有在A Return to Love中讀過, 不過書沒在手邊, 無法確認, 所以不確定到底是誰說的. 但是, 這不重要啊, 重要的是, 我們都是注定要發光的!!!

祝福每個人!!! 閃亮亮~

7/9 TT

7/9 TT
Today is led by John.
*pranayama practice: kabalabti and nadi sodana. We sit longer. I was kind of suprised by myself. I now could really sit and "enjoy" the stillness, without moving for a longer time. Maybe it's just because I havn't practice meditation for a while. But I really like it. Though my mind is still wondering around, but I love the stillness.
*excise: grouping and finding 3 comment misalighment at the 1st assignment poses.
*Today's sequence is twisting. Peak pose is Parivta Janu Sirsasana. Today is hot, the weather. And the sequence is a bit advanced, so it's again hard work. twising, hip opening, side streching and shoulder opening are all needed for peak pose. There are some binding to work on opening side body and steching.